Friend, you are meant to be a theologian.
Our theology shapes every aspect of our lives as believers. How can we love and serve God if we do not know him? How can we live a gospel-centered life if we do not know this gospel we were saved by? With biblical counselling, I help women like you put their theology into practice—in the mundane, the rugged terrain, and joyful moments.
Get started with my five day devotional on the attributes of God for the anxious heart.
In the universal church and the local church we are going to come across fellow believers that we clash with. People will annoy us, hurt us, and make us angry. It’s part of living in a sinful world. Thankfully we know that one day in Heaven we will not be faced with such conflict because we will all be finally free from sin. But what do we do in the meantime? We are called to not only love some of our fellow brothers and sisters, but to love each and every one.
It takes us by surprise—the cringe-worthy memory of a past sin we wish we could forget. Maybe you were picking out clothing to wear the next day, packing a lunch, doing housework, watching TV, or playing with your children. One thought quickly connected to another, and suddenly a horrible memory was resurfaced. The pain, the regret, the shame, and disgusting feelings all returned as if you had just committed the sin again. The memories are so vivid you could shutter. Each of us will battle the memories of sin. Not one person can say they have no memory of sins they have committed. So what do we do with these memories that make us cringe? How do we face the memories in Christ?
God has taught me to love the Psalms and rest in them. In weary times when my mind is too tired to focus and my heart is jumbled and distracted, I have found rest in studying the Psalms. I didn’t believe that a study of the Psalms would challenge me like it has and cause such growth. I was a fool to doubt God’s beautiful and inspired Word.
I was among those who wanted a higher self-esteem. I tried to root my confidence in my writing, my horseback riding, my body image, my goodness, and my intelligence. But in my striving, I learned that the pursuit of self-esteem is a tiring and disappointing one. Self-esteem roots you in lies and shades your eyes from the truth—where your true confidence should be.
My theology-loving friend, I want to warn you of the same pride that could grow inside of you as you grow in knowledge. When we are not using our theology to love and serve God and those he has placed around us, our knowledge could be our downfall. Though you may know the doctrines of grace, you may be living with more pride than grace. Though you may know the essential doctrines of Christology, do you live like Christ lived? Though you know the Greek words for love, are you showing others that agape love?
The sub-title summarizes the book perfectly: “Morning Times, Nursery Rhymes, and My Journey Towards Sanctification.” Motherhood is sanctifying, and Cindy Rollins displays this through stories of laughter, tears, and celebration. Reading this book, I felt as if I were sitting next Cindy on my couch sharing the wonders and woes of motherhood, all the while being encouraged that in Christ it is possible to survive.
I'm sure I'm not the only one who has found themselves in this situation before, though it may look different for you. Maybe you drove home from a meeting rehearsing the conversation and all you wished you had said (or didn’t say). Or you had coffee with a friend and might have said something stupid—so you spent the rest of your day fretting about it. Or you brought up a touchy subject at the supper table with friends last night and now you wish you could rewind and keep your mouth closed. These are prime examples of fear of man. Where does this vicious beast come from? How do we find freedom from its anxiety?
When I lacked assurance, I wanted mentors, pastors, and friends to reassure me that I was saved. I wanted them to give me proof I was truly a child of God. I wanted them to point back to my life, to a time when I made a commitment of which they were positive couldn’t be false. But people do not see your heart, and they do not see God’s book of life. They aren’t in the place to give you the assurance you desire. So, we must turn to God’s Word and seek the Holy Spirit to be truly assured. Here are four questions you may be asking yourself in the midst of your doubts and four Scriptures to take those questions to.
A year of living in on-going house renovations, seeing rooms completed one piece at a time, I have learned not only patience but a lot about sanctification. In many ways this little house is much like my heart, and yours too.
I used to imagine the day I would be free from anxiety. I pictured myself encouraging others who battled by saying that they too, someday, could find healing and peace. I imagined writing a book about how I overcame anxiety and others could too. I pictured that triumphant day, swinging my legs over the side of my bed, and smiling into the new day, anxiety-free. Instead, I sit on my bed, twenty-one years old, still waging war with anxiety.
And yet, I know this is a story of hope.
I am a woman saved by the grace of God, a wife, a mother, a writer, and a biblical counselor in training. My desire is to teach women like you to turn to God’s Word in the midst of your daily life and suffering to find the answers you need. I want to show you how to love God with your mind and heart, just as Christ has taught me.
Struggle with Anxiety?
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