It is Well With My Soul—Even Though I Am Not in Control

It is Well With My Soul—Even Though I Am Not in Control

I was weary that night. I expected joy and excitement as I prepared for my newborn. I longed for those sweet kicks and a rounded belly. But when I finally got it, it wasn’t at all what I had hoped for—instead of excitement, I had the miseries of anxiety. My pregnancy seemed to be filled with hospital trips for unknown bleeding, random cramping, unbelievable backaches, and all the worries that accompany those. 

I believed that when Levi finally came, my worries dissipate. Finally freed from my fragile womb, and I could know if and when something was wrong. I could finally have some kind of knowledge and control over this little life. 

But that wasn’t the case. 

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God is Faithful

God is Faithful

As well as we know the sting of the unfaithfulness of others to us, we also know of our own unfaithfulness. Hurtful words we have spoken to others we were supposed to love. Promises we made that we never fulfilled. Times when we were supposed to stand strong to hold another up but ran away and let them fall. Just as others have left their marks of unfaithfulness on us, we have likewise left our own wounds of unfaithfulness. Who can be trusted? Can we rely on anyone? If even those who love us most will still be unfaithful due to their sin, and we ourselves cannot be trusted because of our sin, is there anyone who we can look to that will be steadfast?

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When You Don’t Love Motherhood—Love Your Sustainer 

When You Don’t Love Motherhood—Love Your Sustainer 

What we don’t think about is the possibility that we may not always enjoy motherhood. That motherhood isn’t all bliss and sloppy kisses. Or how we will cope when the postpartum depression kicks in. Or how we will survive those endless days trapped in our home breastfeeding a baby going through a growth spurt. Or how we will make it through the colic. I experience days like this, and I know the only thing sustaining me is the grace of God. If motherhood has taught me anything, it is that God will hold me fast. 

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Learning to Pray When We Worry

Learning to Pray When We Worry

When anxiety peaks, the last thing on your mind is probably prayer. Rather than stopping to pray about the worries that flood our minds, we flit around like an anxious bird, trying to keep our situation under our control even though we know it is spinning too quickly for us to keep up.

And yet, Paul says that biblical prayer is the solution to our anxiety. He says that when we choose to pray rather than worry, we will be filled and guarded by the peace of God.

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The Empty Pursuit of Forgiving Yourself

The Empty Pursuit of Forgiving Yourself

I wanted to find healing for my guilt. I knew many of the Bible verses that talked about forgiveness, but that didn’t feel like enough. No matter how many people told me that was a thing of past and I was forgiven, this guilt seemed to lay heavier on me each day.

I came to the conclusion that I was simply being too hard and needed to forgive myself. But I wasn’t sure how to go about doing that.

I poured my heart out to an older friend, and she hit me with a hard truth I did not expect: You don’t need to forgive yourself.

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You Can Trust God With Your Unborn Child

You Can Trust God With Your Unborn Child

I folded the last onesie and placed it in the drawer of our new nursery bureau. For most pregnant women, preparing their nursery for the arrival of their precious baby marks an exciting time. Happy thoughts of rocking their baby to sleep fill their minds, along with sounds of their baby’s sweet coos as they snuggle in the crib.

But my first thought was not so sweet. Instead, it was bitter: What if my unborn baby dies?

My fellow mom-to-be, do you struggle with fears of losing your baby? I do too.

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Hope for the Hurting, Fearful-to-Trust Woman in the Faithfulness of God

Hope for the Hurting, Fearful-to-Trust Woman in the Faithfulness of God

When we are broken and hurt by others, how can we reconcile that? After the pain we have felt, why should we risk giving such a precious gift away again? And what about God? How is He trustworthy?

Friend, we can learn to trust both God and others again. There is hope for restoration. But first, we must straighten our theology.

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