In the days of pregnancy and early weeks of motherhood, my heart struggled to reconcile two ideas—my love for my child and trusting God with him.
Being a mom is a constant striving to trust God with my fragile child, and it’s a twofold lesson: Motherhood is a tandem walk with trust and obedience.
Worry is a desperate grasping for control. I can say this because I battled anxiety most of my life and it comes from a heart seeking to control.
In motherhood, there are many things I want control of. I want to control my child’s health and safety. I want to control their future happiness. I want to control their behavior. I want to control their salvation and ensure that they become believers. These are a few of the many things I vainly grapple to control.
Notice I said vainly. I can control none of these aspects of my child’s life. I can’t guarantee a healthy, happy life of good behavior and conversion to Christianity. I don’t have that kind of power or sovereignty. But God does. With these aspects of my child’s life, I need to stop exhausting myself with vain grappling. I can reach and grab for control of these things, but I will never succeed. And often times it’s this vain endeavor that keeps me from the obedience God calls me to instead.
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